Sit comfortably on your meditation cushion or a chair without supporting your back. Pay attention to good body posture. The knees should be lower than the pelvis, shoulders and jaw relaxed. Relax your abdomen as much as possible. Breathe deeply several times, get tuned in and turn your attention to your internal body.
Start breathing just as fully and as deeply as you can. Fill your belly completely with your breath and then let the breath rise and expand your chest. When exhaling, relax and rest. Let each individual breath make the journey from your abdomen up to your chest. See each breath as important and significant. Then visualize that you breathe in with your yoni between your legs: light, warmth, love, presence. Let your breath be gentle like a soft warm wind which caresses the entire inner area of your pelvis. Exhaling, relax your yoni like you have never relaxed her before. Let her become very soft. When you inhale, you draw love energy in through your yoni, when exhaling you spread it throughout your entire body.
Now imagine that a lingam of light is waiting in front of the gate to your yoni. Inhaling, you free the passage, you allow him to enter your yoni and breathe him in as far as is good for you. Take the light lingam in with your breath as healing energy into your relaxed womb. Exhaling, you release him again. Play around with opening yourself in a very relaxed way for this healing wand, which comes to bless, to heal, to nourish and to bring love. It is not a concrete physical lingam, rather one consisting of light and love, symbolizing divine creative power. You may now receive this, ”just because.” It does not hurt, and expects nothing of you. It brings you love, nourishment and light.
If it enters easily, let the lingam enter you even further. Receive his light and his love. Let it spread throughout your whole pelvis. Allow it to flow particularly into places where you hold old wounds: to scars from surgery, to womb and ovaries (or perhaps where they used to be), to the bladder (if you frequently have bladder problems), to the G-point area if you can’t feel anything there or you would like to feel more, into the entire temple of lust.
Should it not work or you feel resistance, then let it flow as far as possible. Should it flow easily, let him enter even further. Feel how warmth and a comfortable, soft, full feeling spreads throughout the entire pelvis and rises. In any case keep breathing fully, deeply and gently the whole time. When you notice thoughts circling in your head, don’t fight them. Simply shift the switch of your perception so that you can feel and watch your breath again until the next thought catches you. This way you can try as long as a couple of breaths to exercise your ‘attention muscle’; turn your attention again and again to feeling, and leave the world of thought for a while. Only this breath is important, even just this part of the breath. You may forget everything else.
In your willingness to experience every breath lies the entire potential for happiness just as the entire potential for unhappiness lies in your denial. Imagine there was nothing except for this moment in time. And now you have the opportunity to perceive it, savour it and accept it completely – for example with the help of your breath. Indulge yourself just once in the abundance of a single breath without distraction. As if you would invite, with this one breath, the happiness of the whole world to enter you, spread out within you into every single pore – and, when exhaling, to extend into every cell until your whole body begins to glow.
Stay with the breath. Imagine you allow the light lingam to enter so far that the tip of his glans touches your heart centre in the middle of your chest, very gently, very softly. Inhaling, you let him grow up to your heart and release him with the exhale. Open your heart for this wand of love. Let yourself be touched in the innermost of your heart. With his light he is can erase old memories of pain and suffering, unfulfilled wishes, and longings from the past. Let your heart be purified from old burdens, so you are able to open yourself anew to love experiences now and in the future. Let go, in love, of old ties which still burden your heart. Let the light energy be the balm to close old wounds without you having to know which ones they are. Maybe they are not even your personal wounds, but wounds which women have experienced collectively. Breathe a sigh of relief and breathe fully. Enjoy the light-bringing wand widening your heart for you, for the man of your heart, for all men in your life and for all men and women of this world.
Now let the light lingam rise even further. Try to contract your pelvic muscle a bit when inhaling, as if you wanted to enhance the sucking in of the light energy with your muscle contraction. A little contraction – not much – and in exhaling you let go and relax your yoni, the pelvic muscle and your entire body. Intensify and speed up your breathing. If it is too tiring to tighten and relax the pelvic floor muscles at the same time as breathing, turn your concentration primarily to your breathing. With time you will be able to connect the two better and better. Feel the heat inside your body – intensify the fire breath for several minutes.
Visualize how your entire body is penetrated by this glowing lingam. Melt, becoming one with it completely. Feel as if you were the lingam. Your thighs are the testicles, your body the shaft, your head the glans. Everything glows and pulsates. Your breath may now become a panting. Now tighten your pelvic muscles strongly a couple of times. Feel how the divine spark gathers and concentrates at the level of your yoni, in the form of heat, warmth, healing power. Now let this manifested love energy, the divine sperm, shoot up your inner channel. You may need to support this eruption with your own sounds. Feel how this rain of light shoots out of your crown like fireworks and rains back down onto you lovingly full of blessing. Feel the light within your body and also feel it envelop, love and flow over you externally.
Now your breath can calm down and flow without effort. Take a couple of minutes to listen inside, and not do anything. Stay there as long as you want. Then see whether you want to release the lingam. You can let it become smaller in his whole, golden dignity. If you wish, release him completely by accompanying him to the gate with your gentle breathing. You may also offer him a place in your womb where he can stay and rest together with you. See how your inner self would like to close this meditation, in a way that fits you. Feel yourself as woman, be aware of your entire body, your buttocks which you sit on, maybe your neck, hands, feet, pelvis. Then stretch and come back to the world of time. Remain conscious and aware in all you do now, and stay in touch with your inner body.